can the world stop spinning please
dude i srsly dont understand what i wanna do rn like
coming back to the last post, im just not in the mood to do anything
rn its 4am and my morning alarm will go off in an hour. im up this late because i procrastinated a very easy plate assignment and i had to redo it because i messed it up the first time. later during class which starts at 7am, we have a group presentation which our group's canva presentation wasn't yet finished because apparently we each actually had to do our own contributions to the canva presentation. for the whole day i think I'll be off working on our documentation class project which I've been elected (lowk self elected) as the co-director of. i need to pay back my friends for the money i owe them. i have a Kitchen model group project due next week but my group mates aren't particularly committed either. Also, earlier today, or yesterday rather, I had just finished an interview to join with volunteering for my scholarship program.
And i have yet to finish the commissions and owed art that I'm weeks due.
i wish the world would stop spinning
it's still 4am and I don't want to fall asleep because im afraid i wont be able to wake up because im a really heavy sleeper lol.
why do I do this to myself. I love to get myself into things but never fully commit to it halfway. i seriously dont even wanna do anything that ive mentioned. i just have this weird gut wrenching feeling whenever i genuinely don't want to do something. feels like feeling disgust on the tongue and having the short urge to cry and burst out randomly.
and look at me rn, making a new blog, which idek if i could continue with this lol
And nonetheless, I still want to make time for my hobbies. fml tbh im poisoning myself at this point